Holy cow... what a day. I didnt wake up until 4pm... Brandons room is like a freaking dungeon. No windows means no light and you can sleep for days. So, Brandon is leaving in two weeks. How freaking crazy. It feels like he just got back. He'll be gone for 3 months this time, and instead of taking classes, he'll be teaching. Yikes. 3 months. Granted, its only a few weeks more than last time, but it seems like its gonna be forever. We dont know how we're leaving things concerning "us". Its kinda whatever happens happens I guess, which is the way we left it last time. Only difference is that Brandon said if he gets back this time and we still find we want to be together, its for good this time. Which made sense to me, we've been attatched to each other for so long, its time that its either set or done. My guess is, knowing us two, its gonna be set. We're doing really well lately. Ever since he got back and that whole trial nonsense started(why we even went to trial or any of that crap happened I dont know, but it brought me and brandon and all my friends closer together), we've been extremely close. We've both grown as people and have realized that the mistakes (people) we've made in the past while dating each other were just that , mistakes. No offense to anyone out there that Ive recently been with, its just that me and Brandon are kinda bonded together in some wierd way. I cant explain it.... But you never know, 3 months is a long time and either one of us could easily find some one else and we could be over. Thats odd to say. Cause anyone who knows me and Brandon also knows that is has never been over... BUT this could be it.... Wierd. Anyhoo, Im gonna enjoy the last two weeks he's here and hopefully not cry like a little girl when he leaves (im sure I will). Well, Im heading out, my mom made Chris some cookies and fudge and rice crispy treats that I have to deliver. (My mom is the most awesome person alive by the way...all my friends can vouge for her!) I hope everyone enjoys what ever holiday they are celebrating! Te quiero!

So, I just got off work. Another wonderful night at the Brewhaus. I love that bar. Its probably the best place Ive ever worked at. Seriously. The people there are awewsome. Instead of old farts, its people my age who actually treat me like a friend. I have made so many new friends working there. If anyone hasnt been there yet, you should definately go. We have the biggest beer selection anywhere, and pretty much any drink you can name, Mike can make.. I mean c'mon... a chocolate banana fuzzy wuzzy? Its so awesome. EVERYONE came in tonight. B-dog, Spence, K-tina, dave, joe, matt, mike, johnny, aaron, lindsey, josh, collin, diana, jen, angus, chris, ben, trish, josh, ramsey, and of course, KAREN!!! (my friend who moved to florida last year). It was amazing. Mike is the most generous bartend ever. Its your b-day? Get ready to be hooked up! Youre a good friend? get ready to be hooked up! Where else around town can you find that? I guess that is why we have been named the best bar in Springfield! I LOVE IT!!! So anyway, Im now sitting at spence's with angus, spence, dave and brandon. They are watching some movie while I type on my blog and wait for brandon to be ready to go eat. Im gonna stay at his house tonight. So, if you desperately need to get ahold of me, call there and ask for brandon in the morning. He'll pass it along. What is everyone doing for New years? Im off work so we all plan to get together and have a marvelous evening. Anyhoo.... Please be safe and take care of yourselves. I cherish all my friends and want no harm to come to you! I love you and will talk to you all soon! Hasta luego!

My sleeping schedule is completely back asswards. I went to bed last night around 6am, I woke up at 130pm. Ive seriously gotta rectify this before next semester. So Im just piddling around on the internet, checking my email, sending out emails to people who seem to think that I have forgotten them but in reality he never calls me either (CHRIS!!). I was getting to thinking. Its gonna be 2005 soon! I cannot believe it. Another new years eve to deal with. They seem so huge and then the actual moment comes and its kinda a let down ya know? Its not even a whole day, its less than a second of time that everyone celebrates and screams and yells and kisses for. What the hell is that? I mean, I get sucked into it too. I cant wait to hang out with brandon and chris holmo and k-tina and spencer and dave and lindz and hopefully chris gunga and emily....and all my wonderful friends. I cant wait to count down and get all dressed up and all excited about the midnight kiss. But if you actually sit down and think about it, it seems kinda ridiculous huh? A split second (not even if you seriously break it down) party. Other than that its an excuse to get together, enjoy one anothers company and drink. My friends and I dont need that excuse. We try and do that every single day. But what the hell.... like I said, I get sucked in too. Im gonna buy a pretty new dress! Hee! But anyway, I hope everyone has a good split second holiday and you all get to buy pretty new dresses and be kissed at midnight and have wonderful friends to sit and enjoy the split second with. Love you all.....

So, I just got done sending my resume into MLB.com. Im applying to be a stats stringer at Wrigley. Wish me luck. Not a bad summer job, getting to watch 81 games from April-October and get payed for it. Me and Chris went to the boat tonight. I lost $20 and had to sit and watch that little homo win $667 dollars on a damn penny machine. The way I look at it is, if I had won that much money that would have sucked out all my luck for the month and this job wouldnt happen. So I have now rationalized losing money as a good thing. Me and Brandon stayed at Spencers house last night. It sounds funny but we were up till 6am dancing in his living room. It was so much fun (and a good workout too!). He played all his latin music and I tried to teach him the few steps that I remeber from what my spanish teacher taught me years ago. We woke up at 3pm and ordered pizza and just hung out. Good times by all. So, the new year is coming around... crazy. I of course have the standard resolution to become healthier. Lose 30lbs, eat better (im re-veging it again by the way), quit smoking, quit drinking so much....blahblahblah. We'll see how it goes. I cant believe this year has gone by so fast. Good and bad year, mostly good. Well, Im gonna try and get some sleep. Keep warm and drink lots of hot chocolate! Love you mucho!!!

Well, another day is here. They just wont stop comming will they? I had fun yesterday. I stayed at Brandons house on Tuesday night, woke up at an ungodly 3pm, went to my final review, chilled out with my mom, then back out to Perkins with chris, lindz, lindsey, k-tina, and brian. It was a good time. We got on the wonderful debate of "god or no god" again. I of course stand firmly in my non-belief, but lindz is definately questioning. It was one of those conversations where you feel a little bit more informed after having it. I then went to Kinkos and took my passport photo. I cannot wait for March! Then we headed to the bar, stayed till about 1am. Chris dropped me off over at Spencers so I could meet Brandon. We watched a movie then went to Denny's. I then proceeded to stay up till 6am writing a report and chilling with Brandon. Now Im awake, at school, have already taken a test, and am getting ready to go to final review. Its gonna be a long day. Me and Brandon had a really good conversation about life last night. Of course we both got kinda heated and argued a little, but thats how me and him are. It works for us. All in all another really good conversation. I love my friends. I love being able to say what I think (which is almost always out of the norm) and not be chastized for it. Well, time for that damn review thingy. Oh, the things I do to survive in a society that I dont really like.....

I cant believe that its almost Christmas. Crazy. Nothing much new has been going on. Ive been working and going to school. Thats about it. Me and Brandon went on a date on Friday. We went and ate at the "x" and then went to see the Incredibles. The dinner was great, the movie was just ok. Cute and well done, just kinda boring. Then, yesterday I worked, Brandon and Angus got drunk. It was really funny. I was the only waitress so I was freaking busy, but I made hella money so that was good. Me and Brandon went to eat after I got off then went to wal-mart. I made a lot of extra cash so I bought Brandon this $50 video game he really wanted. And in turn he bought my niece a very cute Christmas present from both of us. Then I stayed the night over at his house and didnt leave until 530 pm today. We went to eat China Star. It was soooo good. Then I hung out with Chris and Spence and Dave. All in all its been a pretty good weekend. Well, I hope everyone had a nice weekend like I did. And I hope we all have a good week also! Hasta Luego! Love you all