Popachubby!!

Oi vey, what a night last night. Well, I woke up at 11am, went shopping in st.louis (got the CUTEST shoes), got home around 8pm, went to a show at Andiamo (The Gunga Dins started a new band), then proceeded to get incredibly drunk. HORRIBLY drunk actually. I woke up this morning and have decided that I will not be drinking for an entire month. I know you dont believe that it will happen, but trust me...it will. I cant get drunk. I get myself in WAY too much trouble drinking. So, Im chilling out for awhile. Wish me luck ok? Brandon is doing well. He figured out that he can text message me so Ive been getting messages on my phone the last couple days. Apparently he is getting his job stuff worked out, and Angus had oral surgery today. OHHH, one more thing.... SEE YOU LATER SAMMY!!! WOOOO HOOOOO!!!! DING DONG THE BITCH IS DEAD!!!!!! love you all and have a good night!!

25 days

So it has now been 25 days since I have had sex. I hate it. I hate being alone at night. I hate not waking up in the morning seeing some one sitting next to me. I hate not having some one to kiss or hug or cuddle with. I hate not having sex. I miss him. I am actually aching at this point. Not just mentally aching, but PHYSICALLY aching. It really bites. Just to feel his hands on me for a split second would help. God, why did I end up this way? Why cant I be like some of my friends who dont need sex. Grrrrr, come home soon.. I need you.

I love Carmen Electra

So, I do not believe in God. I have stated this point in a previous post. BUT, something happened the other day that is seriously making me reconsider. I went to best buy, I decided to just run over to the work out dvds because the ones I have are kinda worn out and boring to me now. Anyway, Im looking around and I see one with Carmen Electra on the front. She's hot, so I grab it. Guess what it is? Aerobic Striptease: Strip your way to fitness. How freaking perfect is that for me???!!!! You work out by learning a strip tease routine. So I immediately bought it and took it to my friends house where myself and Lindz and Lindsey K. did it together. OH MY GOD. Its hot. And quite a freaking work out. We had so much fun and were in so much pain at the end of it. There is 5 dvd's in the series and I plan on buying every single one of them. One of them concentrates on the lap dance! HA! and another one is role playing. Its so freaking awesome. But I bought that on Friday, we went out later that night and me and Lindsey K. did our routine on the dance floor at the bar. It was hilarious. So, Im sick. Ive got this stomach virus that everyone seems to have lately. I got it from my moms. It sucks. You cant eat because you constantly feel sick. So, I havent eaten hardly ANYTHING in the last 3 days. Hopefully Ill be better by tomorrow. I have to work 8 hours. Ive started looking at flights to Bogota. Pretty expensive, but Ive got plenty of money to do it right now so why not? Im just waiting on Brandon to figure out whats going on with his job and living situation and what not. Umm, Brandons parents emailed me the other day. It was so sweet of them. The day Brandon left his dad talked to me on the phone and of course I was a basket case, so he just said some very nice things and made me feel so much better, so I emailed him to thank him and he and Mrs. Petit emailed me back. They are so nice to me and I greatly appriciate them letting me sleep in their house and eat their food and just be around for the last 4 years. ACTUALLY, Brandon and I officially started dating for the first time TODAY, 4 years ago. weird. Ummmm, I dont think anything else is going on. I went to the gay bar on Friday. I pretended I was from Buenas Aires to cover for my friends lie to a guy he didnt wanna hang out with, and he bought it. It was so funny. I got drunk, the TWO straight guys in the bar hit on me, I gave one a fake number and was too drunk to even acknowledge the other one. What a night. I guess thats it. I hope everyone had a good weekend, and hope you all have a good week to come. Love you!!!!

23 year old women and 18 year old men....

You know what my favorite show is? Well, at least at this very moment.... Degrassi: The next generation (Chris Gunga!) Its for like 12-18 year old kids to watch and learn about life and what not. But, you wanna know why I like it so much? A character called Craig Manning. He's played by Jake Epstein.Holy crap he is so hot. He looks kinda like my highschool sweetheart. The tatoo'd (although Jake doesnt have any tatoos I dont think, but he looks like he should) lean, tall, male model, rocker look. Soooooo hot. I love guys that look like that. What Im wondering is, is this OK or is this sick? He's an 18 year old actor (JUST turned 18 I think) and Im 23 year old young woman. BUT, I must admit, if I ever ran into this boy, wouldnt think twice about going to bed with him. BUT, once again he's 18!! Im so creepy sometimes. Ummm, Brandon and Angus are going on some sort of trip this week. He's been gone for over 2 weeks now. I am definately feeling a little different. Who knows if this is good or bad yet. But anyway, he'll be gone the rest of the week. So he wont be able to get ahold of anyone. Me and Chris are going out tomorrow night. Hopefully Ill get to see him make out with a married man and grab some random guys HUGE penis again at the gay bar. We are definately too close. HA! Ummmm, I think thats it. Ill talk to you all later. love ya!!!

I love my job...

So I worked tonight for 4 hours. It was busy as hell since tomorrow is a holiday. I worked my ass off. At the end of the night I started to count my money. It just kept going and going. 4 hours, and I made $240 !!!!! How does that happen? I mean, I know we're the most popular bar in Springfield, but that is rediculous! Anyway, Bogota here I come! I work again tomorrow and Tuesday, Ill have enough for my plane ticket, extra money and more before Wednesday! WOO HOO!!!!! PLUS, I've lost 15 lbs! What a great freaking day!! I was just really excited and wanted to tell some one but everyone is asleep, so I decided to write in my blog. Anyhoo, hope everyone is having a wonderful Sunday/Monday. Love you all. PS- to all my friends, Brandon says he missed you all. Talk to you again soon! Te quiero!

Its Friiiiiiiiiiiday!!!!

I love Friday's. Its the no school no work day! Its the going to the casino boats or going out drinking day. Its the driving to Chicago for no good reason kinda day. Its the wake up at 1pm and start driving at 230pm kinda day. I love these days. I love being the type of person that goes places on the spur of the moment. Three years ago, me and my friend Chris decided to take a trip, to New York. We got in the car, drove 12 hours, stayed in times square over night and saw the sights, then the next morning drove the 12 hours back. we spent more time driving than actually in the city. BUT it was so worth it. Who else can say they did that? I got to see the towers before they went ka blam. Then 2 years ago, me and chris and brandon did the same thing but in the opposite direction to Colorado. I love being so "who care where we go and what we do!" It makes for a very interesting life. So this weekend is my sat, sun, mon, tues week working at the bar. I always work sat , mon, tues, but we rotate every 4th sunday. This week is my sunday. Which is good. Im dropping so much money on bills and passports, I could use the extra cash to go towards my trip in March. Woo Hoo!!! Just had to add that in there to brag about my trip some more. Im planning on Bogota, but writing about how Im so spur of the moment, its got me thinking I just might take off for freaking Brazil or somewhere like that... who knows? Annnnyyyy Waaayyyy. Im gonna head off now. Its time to get my Friday started. Te quiero todo. ¡Espero que ustedes tenga un maravilloso y emocionando el viernes!

PS- Brandon

I hope you know that with out you here berating my pinky toe, it is slowly gaining its confindence back... By the time I see you they will be happy and well adjusted pinky toes. They will be seeking revenge also. So you better watch out... my tiny little pinky toes are plotting your demise and this, ooooohhhhh, yes, is NOT a good thing.

23 isnt old right?

So, Im sitting here at school filling out all this loan crap, and Im slowly realizing how old I feel. IM NOT THIS OLD PEOPLE!!! I dont want to be an adult. I want to travel and see the world. I want to have fun and laugh all the time. I want to be able to do what I want when I want. I dont want to be paying back loans for the rest of my youthful years. I dont want to graduate and have to go directly to work (unless I get the job of my dreams that is). I just dont wanna and I felt the need to throw a hissy fit on here to make myself feel younger I guess. I went and applied for my passport yesterday. $90 well spent I say. If I wanna get this traveling thing going, I guess Bogota Colombia would be a pretty awesome place to start. Everyone keeps saying how dangerous it is and what not, but listen, its something everyone should see. Its a part of this world and I want to experience it. Just like Paris and Naples and Dublin and Barcelona...etc. I cant wait!!! Getting the hell out of this country sounds so good right now. There isnt a better time to leave. Good ol George W. is in office, we're still at war, and we're sending such a crappy amount overseas to the tsunami relief fund. LET ME OUT!!!! Just for a breather ok? Ill be back. I could never leave my moms and my niece and all my super duper wonderful (yes, they get a super duper wonderful rating!) friends. But I need a vacation from this place. Just for a couple weeks. I want to run around the beach, see things Ive never seen, and go somewhere that doesnt speak english. I cant wait, I know the basics of Spanish from my 4 years in highschool, but this should be interesting!! Anyhoo, Ill stop discussing my trip and my age and let you all get back to whatever it is that you are doing. I just hope that it is something fun and un-adult like!! Love you all soooo much!!!!

Sleeeepppp....

I am so tired. This will be the 3rd or 4th night in a row in which I arrived home at 430 am and then woke up at an ungodly hour of the morning. We went to the casino last night and ended up gambling away our money until 230 in the morning. It was a good time, but waking up this morning made it seem incredibly stupid. Oh well. Brandon has emailed me twice since being in Bogota. I miss him sooo much still, but it is getting easier day by day. Ive been pretty much trying to keep myself occupied with things to do so I dont think about it. Between work and parties and casinos and school starting, its working out pretty well. Well, there are a few interesting stories from this LONG LONG weekend, but Im not really in the mood to be typing right now so I guess everyone will just have to wait. Ill talk to you all later!!

Wow, it really hurts

Ow , ow, ow , ow.....Its funny how people say that their heart is breaking all the time. But its just looked at as a figure of speech. But in actuality, its true. Brandon left for Bogota today, and it seriously feels like my heart is ripping in half. Its definately not a good feeling. can you imagine 3 months without your full heart? Yeah, it sucks. But I guess I have to deal with it. Im leaving for Bogota in 9 weeks. I just want it to pass as soon as possible. I want to see him again. Youll have to forgive me, Im kinda a basket case since he's been gone and probably dont make much sense to anyone. But you know, when you cry so long, its hard for your brain to get oxygen and it starts to wonder on you.... anyway. I miss him with all my heart and I know he's reading this while in Bogota and I just want to tell him that I love him and miss him sooooooo much. Please come back to me soon ok? Te quiero!!!!!